From devoted through sceptic to - ?
The grumpy old man’s position! When I meta-think of my learning I see that my position has changed over the last 6 weeks of study. I am learning.
I use to be the devoted user of new technologies in teaching. In my former job as a teacher I tried to convince my colleagues about the exiting possibilities in new technologies in edu. When discussing these topics with sceptic friends and co-workers I have been the defender of new prosperous paths to follow. Arguing against their rather obsolete thinking. I see options in stead of limitations.
In recent weeks my thinking has been turned around. My participation on the cck08 is very interesting, I read interesting papers, blogs, elluminate-sessions and more, most of them matching my opinions and convictions, and enhancing my argumentation.
But I fail in the core element of connectivism: creating connections and turning them into valuable relations. I think that’s why my focus changes to the pessimistic and negative. Now I spot instances of fluffing and less successful stories. I joined the forcreditgroups synchronous meeting,- 1 connection and a nice chat, later no activity and , following people from cck08 on twitter, little content, had few reactions on blogposts, but very ‘friendly’, started ning.group for students on ITU, no reaction, declining activity-curve on moodle, Is the concept of any good at all? Yes! Of course it’s my problem to overcome the difficulties. Stop whining!
But when a shift in my focus can change promising cases into ‘hot air’, is it then the case of ” The emperor’s new clothes”? We do a lot of ‘weaving’ and wishful thinking. Are we a self-sufficient, besserwisser ‘group’ externalised from reality? Is it just a question of patience, and to be persistant?
My activity on the cck08course has gone down a bit, that is, my readings and my lurking are minor compared to the first weeks. But I do a lot of thinking. The difficult part is externalising my thoughts. And that is an explanation to lacking connections, of course. I know. So?
How is the general level of activities on cck08! Is there some fatigue in the network? Where is the activity of the 2000 students? Distributed! Moodle? Blogs? NingGroups? Twitter?
How is your role as a teacher in cases of despondency spreading? Can the network manage it? Which implications does it have on the ‘design’ of courses? Can you design courses to minimise dropout? Facilitator roles, feedback, mixing online-offline activity?
I’m searching a new role. From devoted to sceptic to … ‘realistic dreamer’? dreaming realist?..?
Take a walk in the woods.
/Jorgen C


